What if u walked the road of shame and yet were filled with the knowledge to overcome such. What if you walked this earth  knowing the truth about it all. Feeling every dragging aspect of it. Always under minding the good, the bad, the in between. Harassing the facts of life... I wish I knew the answer for it..and I am quit aware no one else does but him. I ask for it..he shows me constantly..but I am so caught up in this LIFE.. this test. This dragging test. It's humiliating how week I have become. How powerful I can be. I've used such strength for other things..meaningless substitutes. I am smart. My intelligence is rained for something else. I know the answer to the test. I score so low on every question, I feel like I have walked my green mile. I want it to happen already. The all mighty comes and rains. I want it to happen. To see where I'll stand. I'm in love with this world..the feeling of this world..the sensations of this world. I'm in love with the people of this world. I feel for them. I am them. Yet the truth plays over in my head over and over again. It never stops. Every night when I go to sleep I think about the same thing. It's impossible not to think about the something that u are well aware of. I like knowing these things. Its comforting. I just want to be accepted unto him. I want Him to know that I am struggling..and I'm sure he knows..i talk a lot to him. But I want some kind of visiting or vision or dream. I hear so many stories of average people with dreams. Why not give a capable person knowing of his coming a little taste of whats to come? In Jesus name I pray..if this is too much to ask..forgive me.. I am just a thoughtless soul..help me see...In Jesus name I pray. AMEN. I do not believe I am asking for too much..I'm just asking for something not many people ask for..and I do not know if that is the cause of my lacking sight. I am blessed to be living and having time to change..it is a mighty struggle everyday. I am blessed to have His protection..and many others around me. This is just a mindless note..under some random conversation I was having with some random person..haha. Now I'm transferring. ♥♥♥ -Robbie Watson