Felt Free (Only For A Moment)

I yearn for inspiration
Wish I could feel the rain
  in the window pane
This day here
At this very moment
  sends me little inspiration
But the SUN
  awakens my cold cracked skin from the harsh
  arctic air
The wind doesn't even nip
It caresses.
LIKE that rose in June ; ]

I still yearn for inspiration
  maybe a death or two ?
Maybe a plague of some sort
A friends betrayal?
A lovers rejection?
I suppose
I want those things to never happen
  but inspiration is my drug
I need a word to suffice..a song to lift me up..or drag me down..I NEED INSPIRATION!!!!!!
I need it for survival
Why so empty?
I feel half empty then half full
Sensations of an unemployed enterprise
An earthquake of destruction..
I'm a water logged tsunami waiting for eruption..
BUILDING TENSION INSIDE..

Wish I had inspiration
  to carry me though
I understand it comes and goes
  but please inspiration
  come back home soon

I'm a caged bird caught in the wind
Can't move with out words flowing through my head
Sentences through my veins...
PAIN in my fingertips..
OHH it feels so nice.

How free I felt at this moment.